My life is going through a series of transitions both emotionally, physically, and life changes overall. The journey of creating life and having a baby in this Universe is still goal, with that is having daily reminders to not give up on the goal. The start of this journey was rough and continues to be rough. I need to remind myself that this is my journey and not to give up. If it’s in my future to be a mom in this world then Allah will grant it one day. I am strong and I am able body. Alhamdulilah whatever happens will be for the good but I’m not going to give up on my goal to be a mom. I started young and I still have ample time. I will continue to try until I can no longer, InshAllah.
I wonder what type of mom I will be, you know I’m not really the cutesy type of persons. With time, I’ve been a little rigid and changed. I still want to dance, sing, read and take my baby on all sorts of adventures. To my unborn child, I will shower you with immense love from the day I get to see/hear your fetal heartbeat. My number 1 goal will be to love you from the start for as long as Allah grants me time with you.
I am preparing myself to put you first over anyone and everyone this time. No time for sadness or stress. Dear Unborn child, you will be my pocket of happiness. Dear Allah, give me the strength to stay focus and take my worries away. Keep my little family healthy and well. Please give Tanvir and I chance to be parents and spoil our little child. I sometimes feel so awkward and weird to be a mother of 2 angels, it’s such a different perspective and place to be. They will always be a piece of my heart and no one will replace those 2.
My life is going through a transition, we had a bit of an emotional roller coaster with opening up the baby planning journey and now I am slowly gaining controlling of where I need to be both emotionally and physically. I’m going to enjoy pockets of happiness from what the future has along with reminiscing past happiness.
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